Hi, I'm Andoni Silva.
"Everything started when at the age of 8 I had to move to a new city. Since that age I'd create my life and build a successful career trying to find the acceptance I never had as a kid.
I had the world below me, but deep inside I felt miserable, unfulfilled, extremely unhappy. I felt completely lost".
I'm a little kid 8 years old who recently got a surgery in the peritoneum.
And I'm here, in our new home in the island of Mallorca.
I go out to the balcony for the first time.
I look to the side and I see two kids of my age.
They start laughing at me and...hold on, they are throwing me wet toilet paper.
Even at school, they all speak catalan, a language I can't understand. They don't even know how to pronounce my name properly. And they change my name.
From now onwards I'll be Toni.
I feel naked, completely vulnerable.
I feel as I'd never fit it. I feel completely UNACCEPTED.
Since that very moment, and without notice it, I'd create a life to find the love, the approval and the recognition from others.
Twenty years later I got hired for my dreamed job. My life seems to be simply perfect.
For everyone else it looks like the perfect life.
But not for me.
I'm wearing suit and tie and everyone is so proud of me.
My parents are telling everyone the job I'm doing.
Everyone seems to admired me. My status and my income is multiplied.
I'm the lover of the most beautiful woman in the office.
Everybody knows me and I feel finally got that recognition I was looking for.
I'm the eMarketing Director for one of the biggest companies in the country.
However, in the inside...
I'm struggling. A lot. I'm going through a lot of emotional pain.
I'll recognise it. I'm addicted to cannabis, alcohol and sex.
I'm in love with a married woman and we have an extra marital toxic relationship.
I'm working up to 70 hours a week and letting my job control me.
I'm having sleepless nights, too many, and stress and anxiety.
I've created a life looking for acceptance and driven by FEAR.
Everything start to change when I decide to...
Walk 400 km completely alone in 22 days.
I'm walking for 20 days, and finally I see the ocean.
I can't contain my tears. I'm alone and crying like a kid.
I feel so thrilled. After 20 days suffering, with my ankle sprain since day three, I'm about to reach the end.
I have a sensation as I never had before.
I feel empowered.
I feel a deep connection with my inner greatness.
I need to look for more. Life can't be just success in the outside.
After that big lesson, I start to become more self-aware and start my search for fulfilment beyond success.
I'm travelling to India where I'm going to spend 1 month.
This trip has shifted me. I feel different.
I saw the greatness in people's smile.
I saw the happiness in places where I learned there could not be happiness.
I'm becoming more and more aware.
And my searching for more starts.
I discover meditation and yoga and start practicing.
I study hundreds of books of ancient spiritual knowledge, psychology, success and happiness.
I feel so inspired by people like Robin Sharma, Napoleon Hill, Dalai Lama, Gourdjeff, Krishnamurti, Joe Dispenza, Bob Proctor, Jack Canfield as also many other Thought Leaders and History-Makers.
Every day I work on bringing more awareness into life.
Still, the fear is leading my life and creating stagnation.
Making me think that I need the perfect conditions to actually change the conditions.
Four years after, I decide to live a life with no plans.
I want to explore asia and explore the world.
I quit my entire life and buy I one-way ticket to India.
The intense journey begins now.
Life is Beautiful!
I travel to so many places in 3 different continents.
I Lived in silence in a buddhist temple meditating 14 hours a day.
I Study and practice so many different things like tantra, reiki, taoism, all kinds of meditations and practical tools to expand our awareness.
I live in 9 different countries and meet people from over 70 nationalities.
They are all friendly and accepting me even with my poor english with strong Spanish accent.
And finally, I felt so accepted!
I felt so much like being me, and really started to get in touch that inexhaustible inner power we all have within us.
And then I learn a big lesson
That it doesn’t matter anymore If I'm unaccepted by others. Because deep in my heart I accept myself.
From a place of full self-acceptance and self-awareness I start to reinvent myself and create a truly authentic and fulfilling life driven by love.
I decide that I want to help others. Others who despite their success are still looking for fulfilment and meaning, and are chasing all these things in the outside that leads to an endless chasing of more and more.
I want to help them look inside them,
and learn that they have all what they need within them,
and if they could just learn to be more aware,
life will be completely transformed.
And since I made that decision life became so beautiful
I met the love of my life and got married.
I live surrounded by nature and tranquility.
I feel so accepted and comfortable with myself.
I feel fulfilled and authentically me.
And so now this is what I do. I became Awareness Coach for Entrepreneurs.
I help them make their inner greatness shine, so they can create more freedom and fulfilment by becoming the best version of themselves.
And now I’m living back in Mallorca, and I no longer worried about being accepted by others. I have such self-acceptance now that I invite people into my home where I've run already over 60 retreats.
I work with purpose-driven entrepreneurs, leaders and wealthy people who are making an impact in the world.
Therefore, the impact I'm creating with my coaching is exponential.
If deep down you know you can go really far away in your business and in your personal life, and you are aware that the only obstacle is YOU, we should have a conversation. Don't you think so?
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